It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are. - e.e. cummings

How fantastical and stymied is she?

Tidal waves break before calm shores

Destroying villages that beat to her heart.

To lay to waste the fields of seeds

Sown by her own hand with love and tenderness

Throwing her fingers to the sky lights

And the wild wind exploding in her hair

Wild lights dancing with wonder through her blood

The luminosity of life shines through her pores

But her own jubilated dance leads her oft to familiar ground

Memories of pain and betrayal lace her tears

And her feet dance on hot and cracked ground

Barren of life.

She can run.

She can curse the land that robbed her of life

Suffocated the seeds of love she had sown

And cut her tender soles as she longed for a place to rest them.

But she may not run… this time.

She may bend her ear to the heavens and rejoice!

For the desolate land before her may yet yield a new crop

She may sow a new seed and it may soak up the acidic soil and make new baskets of nourishment.

Her soul can lead her anywhere

And it knows where to go,

If only she will listen

If only she will still her raging seas and dazzle on the water.

For now she is a woman. And her choice is her own

She loves you and if you will weather her storm

She will alight within you her fiery grace

And feed you delicacies that your heart has only imagined.

Fairy Floss

Photography class: LOVEEEE this class! i have two bomb-digg rolls to develop from the nunnery we went to on a field trip the other day, and ive had to turn in most of my other developed pics for assignments.... but i have a select few that i cant wait to share with you!

self portrait

"radial"

Portrait - Carolyn Kau

"I go from bedside to bedside . . . . I sleep close with the
other sleepers, each in turn;
I dream in my dream all the dreams of the other dreamers,
And I become the other dreamers."

The Sleepers by Walt Whitman, 1855 Leaves of Grass 

"pods"

"void"

"query" - self portrait

"myraid"


all photos COPYRIGHT 2010 Chapin Photo 

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so yes, it was a bit of a roller coaster-y weekend... some details will most definitely be best remained locked in the vault of me memory collecting dust and cobwebs until i one day pen my personal memoirs (which ill get into another day...) BUT i did get to see Warren Miller's WINTERVENTION at the Pabst on friday!!! oh. sweet, sweet. little baby jesus. who brings us pow pow and the mental abilities to create a helicopter; HEAR MY PRAYERS! let it snow... 3 feet of white fluffy goodness tonight. and for every day after until february 25th. (i dont want to be locked in a blizz for my b dizz) Ahhh anyways it was magical... all about heli-skiing, and WAY better then last years. observe the trailer below:

just makes you want to run outside and put snow down your friends pants doesn't it?! sadly we must wait, since it is a few short days away from the end of october and the temperature has been about low 70- mid 80 degrees the last 3 weeks. 

IN OTHER NEWS: i have figured out my halloween costume, which i really put off til the last minute this year... and the winner is: PABLO ESCOBAR!! yes, i admitt i mostly chose this costume becuase i have long yearned to wear a fake mustache on haloween, and to be a bad-ass (stuffed olives, toasters, the Berlin wall, a tube of toothpaste? hardly intimidating, except for how much time and effort where put into their glorious creation.) So i will be the most bad-ass person i can think of, that wont get me hate-crimed.

anyway... think ssssnnnnooooo

poem

i used to write poetry all the time, and in the last few weeks ive been writting alot more. i really love it and it makes me happy and feel close to the world. i decided to post this once because it is my favorite:


A POEM TO MY HEART, because it needed one:

My tenderest heart, soft and light

I know you fear the loneliness of night

The coldness of a strangers touch

And the misery of rejection

My beautiful and ever-expanding heart,

I know your heart-pangs of worry

When you begin to lean against the warmth of another

And long to trust once again.

My wincing and fearful heart,

You are full to the brim with love

Your warm blood aches to beat in time with another

To be held by soft and loving hands that will protect you from all harm.

I too long for this for you

For the peace of security

And for the happiness of ease

And to know circumstance can never sever your beats from another’s rhythm.

Come my own precious and good heart

Come to my soft hands that will protect you from all harm

Lean against me and let my love warm your nights

I promise to always love you and secure you above all else

And I promise that for all of eternity,

No circumstance will ever sever our rhythms from each other. 

wise words to live by from the Dali Lama

1. Take into account that great love and great achievements involve 

great risk.

2.  When you lose, don't lose the lesson.

3.  Follow the three R’s: Respect for self, respect for others,
responsibility for all your actions.

4.  Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful
stroke of luck.

5.  Learn the rules so you know how to break them properly.

6.  Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

7.  When you realize you've made a mistake,
take immediate steps to correct it.

8.  Spend some time alone every day.

9.  Open your arms to change, but don't let go of your values.

10. Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.

11. Live a good, honorable life. Then when you get older and think
back, you'll be able enjoy it a second time.

12. A loving atmosphere in your home
is the foundation for your life.

13. In disagreements with loved ones,
deal only with the current situation.
Don't bring up the past.

14. Share your knowledge. It's a way to achieve immortality.

15. Be gentle with the earth.

16. Once a year, go someplace you've never been before.

17. Remember that the best relationship is one in which your love
for each other exceeds your need for each other.

18. Judge your success by what you had to give up
in order to get it.

19. Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon.